apologize - or maybe she wouldn't be and state that she was just "speaking the truth".
And speaking the truth, would be accurate - as my feet were horrible. I hadn't had a pedicure in at least 6 months. I may have polished my toes since then - but not in the last few months. So not only was the polish chipping - but it had grown out so bad that the bottom third had no polish at all, whatsoever. It was bad.
I describe myself as a low-maintenance type of chick. Actually it may be a bit more extreme than that. I do not do a lot of self-maintenance besides the obligatory daily shower and brushing/flossing my teeth twice a day.
I rarely shave my legs.
I (obviously) do not get pedicures.
And my eyebrows are fully grown in most of the time.
These things may be present in someone *spiritual* and not concerned about such vanity. However, my tears indicated that was not the case.
I could have just gotten a pedicure and been done with it.... But I knew from my extreme emotional response that it was deeper than that. And it was.
So I journaled my way through it. Which is what I usually do when I am having some sort of inner dilemma From journaling, it became clear that that the reason I don't do things to *prettify* myself is because I do not feel pretty. In fact, I feel that spending time + money on making myself attractive is a waste of both.
Which is really, really sad and pathetic.
And stupid. I am obviously not (that) ugly. Actually, I don't think I am ugly at all. I just sometimes have a warped image of myself. Not unlike a lot of women.
And my journaling alerted me to that. I haven't quite finished working through it completely, yet - but seeing the issue so clearly is a huge step in resolving it. I am so, so, grateful for journaling. I highly recommend it!
BTW, I did get a pedicure (paid for by said family member!)- and made myself a cute little toe ring. Here is a tutorial for you to make your own! Just use a smaller gauge wire - I used 16 gauge - which is pretty easy to find in the hardware store.
Love and Light